I got called out right on this here blog sometime around January. Someone came on and commented – hey Bella! Didn’t you used to be part of the 50 Million Pound Challenge? Whatever happened to that?
Good question! And one I didn’t really want to answer. Because I’d fallen off the wagon to the extreme.
In 2009 I documented my struggles and efforts to lose weight in a series of sponsored posts titled The Journey, wherein I did my best to do right by the 50 Million Pound Challenge. There are many reasons for falling off the weight loss wagon – everything from quitting my job to traveling extensively to just getting myself all the way together proved to be obstacles for me. Also, the expectations of the challenge – that I’d log in and document my weight loss and participate online…that also didn’t click and become a habit.
My own feelings about my body lie at the crux of it all. The thing is, I am very happy being me. And it’s taken me a long time to get here! Finally after years of doing unhealthy things – both mental and physical, including developing an eating disorder. At long last I can honestly say that I have gotten over many of my old issues. Finally I completely love the skin that I’m in. And now that I’m here…the realities about my family’s medical history and the battles I may consequently have to face are finally sinking in. I’ve got high blood pressure on my mom’s side, and diabetes on my dad’s. And I don’t want to wind up with either of them, even though sometimes it feels like the odds are against me. It has been easy — too easy — to not think about the reality of the so-called silent killer. I was even diagnosed as having type one HBP for a month or so, but still managed to ignore that diagnosis and keep on my sedentary, eat-what-I-want-when-I-want path.
Now I recognize that I actually need to try. Because I don’t want to suffer the consequences some of my relatives have.
My motivations for improving my diet and starting an exercise regimen aren’t to lose weight and fit into a size that isn’t in the double digits. My motivation is my health and well being. Fitness. Strength. I want to age beautifully, both inside and out. I want to have a bright, happy future. For me, part of that will mean a lifestyle change.
I had the opportunity to interview Dr. Ian Smith about his diet plan, his concerns for African American women as a whole, and his new initiative with CVS pharmacy to fight diabetes.
If I sound super rushed, that’s because my phone was about to die! For the whole interview I was freaking out that I’d wind up disconnecting and leaving Dr. Ian hanging there.
I don’t know if I’m ready to recommit to the 50 Million Pound Challenge – it has worked so well for so many, but right now I’m on my own challenge. I’m not doing it alone — the motivational power of Renewed Fitness has been instrumental in my recent mental outlook. Expect to hear LOTS more about this up and coming personal trainer, y’all.
My new journey involves a healthier diet that includes more fresh fruits and veggies, and cuts way back on fried foods and high fructose corn syrup. It involves drinking water instead of just about anything else – that doesn’t mean that I won’t allow myself the indulgences that make my mouth happy, but I am doing a better job of keeping my liquid calories in check. It involves improving my skincare regimen – including discovering new body washes, sunscreens, night creams and lotions that allow me to treat my skin like the vital organ of my body that it is (expect some awesome reviews of some of these products coming up!). It involves being completely truthful with myself. And it involves testing my own limits of strength, speed, stamina and sweat than I’ve been accustomed to doing before. My new journey does NOT involve constantly counting and comparing and being critical of myself and my own efforts and abilities. Not anymore.
Even though I’ve just begun on this new journey, I’m truly excited in a completely different way. Finally, I’m ready to commit to myself. And that feels amazing.
Are you on a journey too? Tell me about yours!
* photo above obtained from Nubian Fitness Goddess